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faultyideal
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 Posted - 30 Oct 2009 : 12:40:58 AM
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I see this horrible affliction in myself, in ways I cannot explain concretely at the moment other than some pathetic examples, but when I can materialize an explanation I will post.
In the meantime, discuss? 
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faultyideal
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Posted - 30 Oct 2009 : 12:44:32 AM
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Just some criteria I stole from ptypes.com...
* avoids occupational activities that involve significant interpersonal contact, because of fears of criticism, disapproval, or rejection;
* is unwilling to get involved with people unless certain of being liked;
* shows restraint within intimate relationships because of the fear of being shamed or ridiculed;
* is preoccupied with being criticized or rejected in social situations;
* is inhibited in new interpersonal situations because of feelings of inadequacy;
* views self as socially inept, personally unappealing, or inferior to others;
* is unusually reluctant to take personal risks or to engage in any new activities because they may prove embarrassing.
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Crooner
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Posted - 30 Oct 2009 : 01:14:20 AM
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Here’s a video of someone who suffers
from the Avoidant Personality Disorder
That fella could have been a younger version
of myself.
More videos from my Chat Room Thread
Like a typical Five, I am Schizoid-Avoidant.
Over time, I just learned to camouflage it.
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ptypes
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Posted - 30 Oct 2009 : 11:26:27 AM
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quote:
Originally posted by faultyideal
I see this horrible affliction in myself, in ways I cannot explain concretely at the moment other than some pathetic examples, but when I can materialize an explanation I will post.
In the meantime, discuss?
INFP 4w5 sp/sx?
Very cool topic title, faultyideal.
I think of the so called personality disorders, generally, in the same way that I think of the Enneagram types: they're not real. They are essentially ideal types.
Unless you are among the small number of people who could justifiably be classified by psychiatrists as having a personality disorder, and it seems obvious to me that you are not, the extent of your "disorder" is some combination (type) of personality, or character, flaws, with which we all, in our own ways, are "afflicted."
I started out thinking of myself as being of the schizoid type, but I don't think of myself that way anymore. I am more conscious of the flaws in me listed for the type, though, and of those of some of the other types that seem to apply to me. But I have made some progress in lessening these fixations.
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.ron4
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Posted - 30 Oct 2009 : 5:34:25 PM
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I don't have a disorder and I'm not an ideal type 
but I do have fixations and if I didn't have them then
I guess I would be beyond..... and that would be ideal?
Then I wonder, if that were true what would I have to
talk about or would I talk about how unhealthy I used
to be when I was younger?
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Rich
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Posted - 30 Oct 2009 : 7:05:53 PM
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I have the Sensitive Style ( the avoidant in the adaptive range ), and it indeed can make life extremely difficult. The good news is that as life progress, you can find routines that greatly help with coping with this problem!
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ISTJ & SP-3W4
Serious-Sensitive-Inventive-Leisurely Styles
HER:Self Sacrificing-Dramatic-Conscientious-Aggressive styles SP-2W1 ISFJ
My philosophy of life: Love will get you through.
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goodmourning
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Posted - 30 Oct 2009 : 8:45:10 PM
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It takes tremendous momentum to begin to over come chronic avoidance that has lasted into adulthood. I didn't make much progress until I found Schema therapy. I worked with it alone, the Enneagram kept me going. These two approaches taught me that there are many facets to a lifelong personality "disorder" like this. And that that it is rarely ever a disorder in and of itself, but an outgrowth of character structure.
I learned that I avoid very visceral emotional reactions of feeling isolated, incompetant, emotionally inhibited, and subjugated by the demands of others. As I began working full time again and making a life for myself, these reactions repeatedly came up, driving me to want to avoid life. But being able to understand what the reactions really are, led me to stop avoiding nearly as much, and much material has come to consciousness in reaction to being in life and facing the reactions I used to avoid. Something you don't learn in a monastery. |
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goodmourning
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Posted - 01 Nov 2009 : 1:55:13 PM
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.ron4
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Posted - 01 Nov 2009 : 3:09:45 PM
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Originally posted by goodmourning
Hello!
Do you feel like people are avoiding you ?
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goodmourning
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Posted - 01 Nov 2009 : 3:19:06 PM
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dfgray44
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Posted - 01 Nov 2009 : 5:07:17 PM
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Originally posted by ptypes
I think of the so called personality disorders, generally, in the same way that I think of the Enneagram types: they're not real. They are essentially ideal types.
I appreciate the concept of 'ideal types' as regards the E-types and the DSM disorders. 'Ideal', in this case, makes me think of Jung's archetypes...which have a kind of two-dimensionality to them, making any single one of them woefully inadequate for holding the 'global' person.
The difference though is that the E-types aren't just the stick-figure skeletal structures that the DSM/archetypes are. The E-types have muscle on the bone...which dictates a 'style of movement' in 3-dimensional psychic space.
The DSM/'ideals' are significantly bereft of tone; and if you're not picking up on tones in the E-type descriptions then you're not hearing a major portion of what's being said.
I'd suggest that this is one reason you don't fathom Type 4. Their reality might be described as resembling a person swimming in an ever-liquid Impressionist painting of mercurial emotional tone. Their 'disorder' is a difficulty in finding and claiming bones....bones that would allow them to construct more unemotional psychic structures from which to launch into the outer world. Hence, the healthy movement to E1 and ideals....
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goodmourning
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Posted - 02 Nov 2009 : 10:06:15 AM
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Originally posted by dfgray44
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Originally posted by ptypes
I think of the so called personality disorders, generally, in the same way that I think of the Enneagram types: they're not real. They are essentially ideal types.
I appreciate the concept of 'ideal types' as regards the E-types and the DSM disorders. 'Ideal', in this case, makes me think of Jung's archetypes...which have a kind of two-dimensionality to them, making any single one of them woefully inadequate for holding the 'global' person.
The difference though is that the E-types aren't just the stick-figure skeletal structures that the DSM/archetypes are. The E-types have muscle on the bone...which dictates a 'style of movement' in 3-dimensional psychic space.
The DSM/'ideals' are significantly bereft of tone; and if you're not picking up on tones in the E-type descriptions then you're not hearing a major portion of what's being said.
I'd suggest that this is one reason you don't fathom Type 4. Their reality might be described as resembling a person swimming in an ever-liquid Impressionist painting of mercurial emotional tone. Their 'disorder' is a difficulty in finding and claiming bones....bones that would allow them to construct more unemotional psychic structures from which to launch into the outer world. Hence, the healthy movement to E1 and ideals....
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If the Enneagram was just a collection of traits and dysfunction like the above examples, I would've written it off as complete BS. I began my exploration of the E as a complete skeptic. |
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ptypes
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Posted - 02 Nov 2009 : 11:55:25 AM
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Originally posted by dfgray44
I'd suggest that this is one reason you don't fathom Type 4. Their reality might be described as resembling a person swimming in an ever-liquid Impressionist painting of mercurial emotional tone. Their 'disorder' is a difficulty in finding and claiming bones....bones that would allow them to construct more unemotional psychic structures from which to launch into the outer world. Hence, the healthy movement to E1 and ideals....
Well, this is great. We have faultyideal, a 4, coming to us for some assistance, and you're here and know all about the "disorder" of the 4. Why don't you tell faultyideal what some of those bones are and what she or he can do to acquire them.
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Classi
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Posted - 02 Nov 2009 : 12:32:20 PM
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Originally posted by dfgray44
Their 'disorder' is a difficulty in finding and claiming bones....bones that would allow them to construct more unemotional psychic structures from which to launch into the outer world. Hence, the healthy movement to E1 and ideals....
I've taken to cleaning. I ensure that the house is spotless for me and my housemates, and I'm the one who does it, and noone does it better.
There you go fours, personal significance based on something real, and I'm consistently proud of it, there are no moments where I doubt it, or realise it isn't real and that I have nothing to show for it...no, I have a clean house and gratitude from my housemates to show for my efforts and I feel more confident/capable. |
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Classi
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Posted - 02 Nov 2009 : 12:37:59 PM
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| Lol, I just thought faultyideal, your ideals are faulty because they are based on emotion....there's more to a screename than just a name |
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faultyideal
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Posted - 02 Nov 2009 : 2:12:08 PM
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Originally posted by Classi
Lol, I just thought faultyideal, your ideals are faulty because they are based on emotion....there's more to a screename than just a name
Haha I thought I was just being emo
And I have come to the conclusion that my evidence is slightly stupid, so I've been hiding for a little while 
I, too, have assigned myself jobs that only I am allowed to do in my house, and I take pride when I get them done and I am appreciated.
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dfgray44
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Posted - 02 Nov 2009 : 4:35:36 PM
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Originally posted by ptypes
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Originally posted by dfgray44
I'd suggest that this is one reason you don't fathom Type 4. Their reality might be described as resembling a person swimming in an ever-liquid Impressionist painting of mercurial emotional tone. Their 'disorder' is a difficulty in finding and claiming bones....bones that would allow them to construct more unemotional psychic structures from which to launch into the outer world. Hence, the healthy movement to E1 and ideals....
Well, this is great.
I think it's great too!
We have faultyideal,
Speak for yourself...
a 4, coming to us for some assistance, and you're here and know all about the "disorder" of the 4.
I don't know all about it, just more than you.
Why don't you tell faultyideal what some of those bones are and what she or he can do to acquire them.
faultyideal has the entire universe folded within him. So all the 'bones' are excavatable from within his own lands. The best I might be able to do is throw up a geological image that may lend a clue for where to dig.
One thing we notice from the description of the avoidant personality is that every one of those traits is 'subtractive', i.e.- passive/'feminine'/'black' - it all has a negative electrical charge - whereas some of the other 'introverted' disorders contain some 'phallic' element. So, faulty has identified himself with this energetic style, and on his globe this ostensibly places him on the dark hemisphere, always racing away from the sun. We'd also probably find him out at sea in a small boat, particularly subject to being emotionally tossed. Even as he makes a plan of action, every passing wind threatens to change his course, and he seems unaware of the nature of the flow of emotional undercurrents which set him adrift between continents and contribute to his lostness-at-sea.
It would seem that digging for bones will come at a later stage - he'll need to find land first. Therefore, discovering (and fully acknowledging) that his emotional undercurrents are actually patterned (instead of random) and then mapping those currents, as best as possible, would both give him some sense of choice about going (or not going) in certain emotional directions and would offer the chance to use those patterns to safely reach land.
This stage could be called "Making Solid Forms Out Of Water". And it can piggyback on one of the 4's neurotic tendencies....naming and fetishizing emotions is something they have a particular talent for, though sometimes it remains latent or in semi-consciousness.
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Art_Skidmore
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Posted - 02 Nov 2009 : 5:47:45 PM
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the underlying themes of enneagramic types are:
thinkers are avoiding anxiety about their future.
feelers are avoiding shame from their past.
sensors are avoiding rage in their present.
4 example....feeling types are avoiding their negative "shame" which may show up at any moment and burst their present day promoted variant images.
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ptypes
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Posted - 02 Nov 2009 : 6:39:51 PM
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Originally posted by dfgray44
faultyideal has the entire universe folded within him. So all the 'bones' are excavatable from within his own lands. The best I might be able to do is throw up a geological image that may lend a clue for where to dig.
One thing we notice from the description of the avoidant personality is that every one of those traits is 'subtractive', i.e.- passive/'feminine'/'black' - it all has a negative electrical charge - whereas some of the other 'introverted' disorders contain some 'phallic' element. So, faulty has identified himself with this energetic style, and on his globe this ostensibly places him on the dark hemisphere, always racing away from the sun. We'd also probably find him out at sea in a small boat, particularly subject to being emotionally tossed. Even as he makes a plan of action, every passing wind threatens to change his course, and he seems unaware of the nature of the flow of emotional undercurrents which set him adrift between continents and contribute to his lostness-at-sea.
It would seem that digging for bones will come at a later stage - he'll need to find land first. Therefore, discovering (and fully acknowledging) that his emotional undercurrents are actually patterned (instead of random) and then mapping those currents, as best as possible, would both give him some sense of choice about going (or not going) in certain emotional directions and would offer the chance to use those patterns to safely reach land.
This stage could be called "Making Solid Forms Out Of Water". And it can piggyback on one of the 4's neurotic tendencies....naming and fetishizing emotions is something they have a particular talent for, though sometimes it remains latent or in semi-consciousness.
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I found it interesting that you imagine the solution for faultyideal as being something in the style of an adventurer, or even pirate, searching all over the globe for his lost bones. Seems very appropriate in view of my "Adventurous" typing of you. Or maybe I'm projecting it unjustifiably.
But when I read what you've written, I still get the gut feeling; con-artist bullfhit. |
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faultyideal
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Posted - 02 Nov 2009 : 7:29:27 PM
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Originally posted by dfgray44
ptypes may think it's bull-fuh-hit, but df is damn near psychic. I just took a quiz for my online oceanography class... that map definitely helped since currents and their circulation patterns were what was being tested..
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ptypes
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Posted - 02 Nov 2009 : 7:41:13 PM
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faultyideal
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Posted - 02 Nov 2009 : 7:47:47 PM
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Haha turned out to be lucky for me too
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shakti
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Posted - 03 Nov 2009 : 03:38:05 AM
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Originally posted by ptypes
It must have been just a lucky guess.
True. But you'd be amazed how much you can 'know' even if it can only be represented symbolically or as the case here in a 'lucky guess' if you allowed it. df in an INFP but with a highly developed intuition. Damn near psychic is a good description for him.
What struck me about your initial rejection of his post was that you at one time engaged in the disorder business quite a bit on your own site and here. For you, it was a perhaps a product of fear. In a way like a reformed person (sinner), you are sensitive to any level of engaging in the disorder business. But, type four (perhaps not everyone, but many) does feel at home in the darker space of disorder (flaw) and so on, than in the gifts/strengths space. Also, the disorder business when engaged in (not from a place of fear) but from a place of exploration, can potentially offer insight (to some).
That said, though years ago I could not grasp your approach, I do at this point, and I have gained valuable insight from things you've posted on your site regarding pride etc. and see how you see df as adventurous and me as self-sacrificing and lee as conscientious. Of course, you would pick out those features as you encounter posts from any of us; still, what df says is more than adventurous, though I certainly see that he is quite the wild man at times and definitely doesn't fit or aspire to fit the leisurely temperament (which I think would correspond to his enneagram type). |
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dfgray44
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Posted - 03 Nov 2009 : 03:54:26 AM
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Originally posted by ptypes
I found it interesting that you imagine the solution for faultyideal as being something in the style of an adventurer, or even pirate, searching all over the globe for his lost bones. Seems very appropriate in view of my "Adventurous" typing of you. Or maybe I'm projecting it unjustifiably.
But when I read what you've written, I still get the gut feeling; con-artist bullfhit.
The part that goes counter to the Adventurous style, though, is that I envision faultyideal's "adventure" as being a slow multi-decade process, which, though it will have its high points, is also full of significant downs and lulls, as opposed to being a glorious high-seas escapade. Also, my inner image of the bones, right or wrong, ultimately has them residing in a single spot, not spread throughout a plethora of exotic locales. And further, my image places him in a small boat which represents his having minimal will of his own - the emotional sea controls him - which renders adventure a very far-off dream.
In contrast to the Adventurer's outward-moving style, you might also note that my starting premise - "the universe is folded within" - turns me significantly in the opposite direction.
I'd also suggest that the idea (mentioned to faultyideal) of observing the consistent patterns in one's emotional undercurrents should find considerable resonance in your Stoic concepts for health and growth.
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faultyideal
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Posted - 03 Nov 2009 : 10:23:16 AM
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Originally posted by dfgray44
Also, my inner image of the bones, right or wrong, ultimately has them residing in a single spot, not spread throughout a plethora of exotic locales. And further, my image places him in a small boat which represents his having minimal will of his own - the emotional sea controls him - which renders adventure a very far-off dream.
it's funny, because one time i explained to one of my best friends that my inner landscape was a sort of stormy and watery place, with me sitting scared on a small boat being pushed around on huge rolling waves, with lightening striking overhead. underneath the waves i fear huge monstrous creatures just waiting for me with open mouths. in the distance i can see a piece of land. if i could just get to land i would be safe but the boat is definitely not going in that direction.
i know that if only i could get the courage to abandon my boat, plunge into the dark water and swim to land, i might have a chance to get there. i might not make it, but if i tried it'd be better than sitting and hoping. still the fear holds me back.
i'm very afraid of the water...
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dfgray44
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Posted - 03 Nov 2009 : 12:01:01 PM
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Originally posted by faultyideal
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Originally posted by dfgray44
Also, my inner image of the bones, right or wrong, ultimately has them residing in a single spot, not spread throughout a plethora of exotic locales. And further, my image places him in a small boat which represents his having minimal will of his own - the emotional sea controls him - which renders adventure a very far-off dream.
it's funny, because one time i explained to one of my best friends that my inner landscape was a sort of stormy and watery place, with me sitting scared on a small boat being pushed around on huge rolling waves, with lightening striking overhead. underneath the waves i fear huge monstrous creatures just waiting for me with open mouths. in the distance i can see a piece of land. if i could just get to land i would be safe but the boat is definitely not going in that direction.
i know that if only i could get the courage to abandon my boat, plunge into the dark water and swim to land, i might have a chance to get there. i might not make it, but if i tried it'd be better than sitting and hoping. still the fear holds me back.
i'm very afraid of the water...
INFP 4w5 sp/sx?
Part of the value of the Enneagram is its ability to codify and stratify the psyche. I'm not a psychic (though I can't say that I haven't played a role in the occassional psychic occurrence) - I was only looking at the particular brand of 4-ness that your posts alluded to. The fact that your 4-ness and its brand (the way it gets expressed) are so seeable means that your pattern isn't random or particularly chaotic (though it seems storm-tossed from your perspective), and this unfortunately alludes to the fact that it isn't particularly unique (Sorry). [I'm referring to the pattern, not you as a person.]
What I'm saying is those unknown sea monsters with the gaping mouths may only have big messages they want to express - that's why those big mouths are so wide open - they're ready to communicate, rather than eat. As you say, your sense is that they're waiting for you, and we all know a sea monster could easily tump over your little boat if it wanted to.
This is the juncture during the dream where the dreamer decides to turn back toward the monster that's been chasing him. The dreamer then asks the monster why it's been harassing him. At this point, the monster suddenly engages in a very civilized conversation with the dreamer. The monster was, afterall, always just a small speck in the dreamer's universe.
A person's angels always first appear as devils.
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