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.ron4
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 Posted - 06 Feb 2012 : 02:46:57 AM
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Originally posted by May Hem
i heart redundency
.......and now you know your problem no matter how you spell it.
"If you wanna make the world a better place take a look at yourself and make a change". |
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AstralScream
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Posted - 07 Feb 2012 : 12:41:02 PM
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Originally posted by whitelila
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I want to be that child
That child is still inside you. *Hug*
She is just hiding because she was hurt. All the hope you had in the world turned into a dark landscape full of people with cold cruel bird eyes. But I promise, I promise, there are other lands, worlds that your heart yearns for. Don't lose hope.
The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes.
Marcel Proust
 Thank you. That was very thoughtful and sweet.
Lots of truth in that.
I love that quote, too.
She is chained to the tremor
of a never arriving rhythm;
she has a heart of silver
and a dagger in her right hand - Federico García Lorca
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Cytokine
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Posted - 07 Feb 2012 : 3:59:58 PM
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So sick of being an office worker. Sitting all day long doing nothing is quite unhealthy -
According to Newton's laws of motion, an object at rest tends to remain at rest, and an object in motion tends to remain in motion, unless acted on by an outside force. This is an important concept in energy production, says Sal Fichera, MS, CSCS, an exercise physiologist and owner of Forza Fitness in New York City.
"The body was designed to be in motion," he explains. "When we're not in motion, everything slows down: circulatory systems, energy production. The body, when it's in motion, has to produce energy through various metabolic processes. If we're not in motion, those processes simply slow down to an extreme case where a person just dies and it stops."
Some people are so sedentary that they walk around as if half-dead, with each step an effort, says Fichera. The more active folks, on the other hand, reach a point where movement feels natural.
Don't blame yourself too much if you belong in the first group. The structure and conveniences of today's society make it easy to sit in front of a desk all day, order in meals, groceries and videos, watch hundreds of television shows at any given time, and phone or email people instead of visiting them in person.
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1w9 sp/sx Obsessive Compulsive
"Corpus omne perseverare in statu suo quiescendi vel movendi uniformiter in directum, nisi quatenus a viribus impressis cogitur statum illum mutare."
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AstralScream
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Posted - 08 Feb 2012 : 03:49:27 AM
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I'm smoking again, staying up late and pretending I'm someone else (aka writing). Damn this gets old...
I keep trying to write something new, but the same old story keeps coming out, over and over again in different guises. Ugh, I'm a broken record or a whining baby.
Some cacophonous mixture of both.
Not writer's block...no I can't stop that. More like writer's rut. writer's 'rut row'.
Oh well, guess there's nothing to do but carry on, then. On with it.
I miss my hot chocolate. The I have seen the bottom of the cup already. This is a signal to go to bed..
She is chained to the tremor
of a never arriving rhythm;
she has a heart of silver
and a dagger in her right hand - Federico García Lorca
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Art_Skidmore
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Posted - 13 Feb 2012 : 05:44:21 AM
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when i worked with my hands in construction....whenever walls were torn down..it was all thrown away...and new material was used cause its less flawed and easier to work with than the ole stuff.
When you wake up...what is the first thing you see? |
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Cytokine
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Posted - 13 Feb 2012 : 8:55:09 PM
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Frozen Fruit Flies Come Back to Life
http://pulse.me/s/5X6sq
... wish I could be frozen and brought back to life when the aging problem is resolved.
1w9 sp/sx Obsessive Compulsive
"Corpus omne perseverare in statu suo quiescendi vel movendi uniformiter in directum, nisi quatenus a viribus impressis cogitur statum illum mutare."
Isaacus Newtonus |
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Cytokine
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Posted - 13 Feb 2012 : 11:07:55 PM
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I don't think the average human lifespan is enough time to appreciate what life has to offer. I know I could do so much more if I had 500 years left and not about 50. I am annoyed by human limitations and I hope that as time goes by they are at least partially resolved, though I probably won't live to see the day.
At least if I knew there was afterlife...
1w9 sp/sx Obsessive Compulsive
"Corpus omne perseverare in statu suo quiescendi vel movendi uniformiter in directum, nisi quatenus a viribus impressis cogitur statum illum mutare."
Isaacus Newtonus |
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radical_ed
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Posted - 13 Feb 2012 : 11:26:22 PM
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Breathe in. Breathe out.
There is a stillness.
My shirt smells like cayenne and boiled crawfish. I love it; I should never wash it.
Lady Antebellum is playing on Pandora right now. It's a love song.
I don't know if I am a 1w2 or a 3w4 ... I'm not sure if it matters, even on an Enneagram Message Board. I ponder.
Breathe in. Breathe out.
My negative self-talk has often been, "You are nothing. You are a failure." So that sounds 3.
But on a subconscious level, I feel others should live upright lives; I also feel like they have an obligation to themselves and society to reach their highest potential and contribute the most they can to society. (That also sounds 3ish to me.) I feel the same about myself. I fail. They fail. I get better. I can't always say the same about them.
I live a rather still, almost boring life. So I gradually add new friends to the mix. We laugh. I crack jokes. I share stories. They return the favor.
I have 460 Facebook friends, and an ever-growing number of real ones.
"Every Breath You Take" should not be playing on the Pandora "Love Songs" station. That is a stalker song and Sting has said so himself.
I wanted to post a "Stream of Consciousness" post. I have been meditating a lot lately, so there is less and less stream and more and more consciousness. So I guess this will have to do.
Previewing this post, I just realized my sig says I am 1w2 at the moment. Please disregard; I am still unsure.
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Radical Edward
sp/sx 1w2 INTJ, 136 tritype
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BADMAN
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Posted - 14 Feb 2012 : 2:32:09 PM
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Hello Radical...3w4 seems right for your type imo...from some of your posts and photo on the pictures thread...you remind me a bit of Margaret Russell and Tanith Belbin are both 3W4s.
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radical_ed
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Posted - 14 Feb 2012 : 10:49:46 PM
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Originally posted by BADMAN
Hello Radical...3w4 seems right for your type imo...from some of your posts and photo on the pictures thread...you remind me a bit of Margaret Russell and Tanith Belbin are both 3W4s.
If I have to be a 3, 3w4 makes more sense than 3w2. I'm not a charmer by nature ... what charm I have had to be worked on and developed, and I believe not often used.
I'm unfamiliar with both Margaret Russell and Tanith Belbin, but I googled their pics and they're gorgeous! So thanks.
Margaret Russell
Tanith Belbin
Me
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Radical Edward
sp/sx 3w4 INTJ, 136 tritype
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Roshan
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Posted - 15 Feb 2012 : 09:33:44 AM
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Originally posted by whitelila
I'm unfathomably ugly. I want to rip my face from my skull. Why did they put me in this shell? See that. Hell with an s, s for shitty. I was once beautiful, i was, or i thought I was, my shell had a shine, but inside, I think inside I was dead. A dead snail with a pretty shell. Now i don't even have the shell. It looks grey. I'm ageless, though. There is that. Thank God for that. None of this might be real. Reality is an odd thing. In the dark I can see the cracks, but the light makes me shrink away. Me, this dead snail.. shrunken in the corner of its shell. People's eyes have light.. light pours forth.. pools of eye light.
I don'5t know why you said that about yourself. I saw your photo yesterday. You're unusually pretty. I should've said something then. |
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Cytokine
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Posted - 15 Feb 2012 : 12:09:59 PM
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I think you have a cute mediterranean look that under the right conditions can be pretty dazzling.
1w9 sp/sx Obsessive Compulsive
"Corpus omne perseverare in statu suo quiescendi vel movendi uniformiter in directum, nisi quatenus a viribus impressis cogitur statum illum mutare."
Isaacus Newtonus |
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Roshan
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Posted - 15 Feb 2012 : 12:41:16 PM
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Originally posted by whitelila
thank you for your compassion Roshan. Cytokine, also.
I'm off my meds and I'm going down fast. I have scavenged by bathroom and kitchen, but all pills are gone. I need a refill and my doctor is away. I could call his staff and have them refer me to someone else.. but the effort seems too much. Surely I can hold out for another week.
Just make the call. His staff should be able to contact him and get him to phone in a refill to the pharmacy. They actually should be able to do it themselves with his permission. |
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Roshan
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Posted - 15 Feb 2012 : 12:59:39 PM
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E-mail me through the site if you want to. I'll give you my phone number if you need it.
I'm sorry, I didn't see your first post about the medication when I answered the first time.
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whitelila
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Posted - 15 Feb 2012 : 2:25:52 PM
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Thank you, Roshan. I have called. :) The pharmacy has been given premission to give me a one week extention until I my doctor is back and town and I can go see him. There is a part of me that feels galled that I need medication. I'm offended at myself. lol So when I run out, i'll push it to the limit, see if I really do need it. But I guess I do. I'm crazy. 
I have a support network but feel warm/shy that you offered your number. I so rearly ever get that close to people, to speak on the phone, it is rare for me, but the idea that someone would offer that concern and intimacy so easly, is moving.
Cytokine, thank you again.
I feel kind of.. shy now.
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Roshan
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Posted - 15 Feb 2012 : 4:55:03 PM
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Peekaboo, Lila.
Very, very, very pretty. |
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whitelila
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Posted - 15 Feb 2012 : 5:20:35 PM
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MH
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Posted - 15 Feb 2012 : 10:56:14 PM
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Very, very, very pretty
she is. Very much so |
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Galen
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Posted - 16 Feb 2012 : 02:43:25 AM
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I've developed a bad habit of pressing the left side of my pinky where the nail meets the skin against a computer mouse every time I use one. The skin has started to callous over and the area is getting sore, but otherwise everything seems fine. Now the mouse I use has a very shiny spot where the finger has rubbed off all the bumps the mouse used to have.
What's my type?
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And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don't believe in magic will never find it." -Roald Dahl |
Edited by - Galen on 16 Feb 2012 02:44:23 AM |
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Cytokine
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Posted - 18 Feb 2012 : 12:42:17 PM
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I thought I had problems in life... but after a gym exercise with the new Russian trainer I think they started to pale in comparison.
Damn, I so want to do it again.
1w9 sp/sx Obsessive Compulsive
"Corpus omne perseverare in statu suo quiescendi vel movendi uniformiter in directum, nisi quatenus a viribus impressis cogitur statum illum mutare."
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Stormy
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Posted - 18 Feb 2012 : 12:44:21 PM
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Originally posted by Cytokine
I thought I had problems in life... but after a gym exercise with the new Russian trainer I think they started to pale in comparison.
Damn, I so want to do it again.
Life?
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dfgray44
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Posted - 18 Feb 2012 : 12:54:18 PM
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Originally posted by Cytokine
I thought I had problems in life... but after a gym exercise with the new Russian trainer I think they started to pale in comparison.
Damn, I so want to do it again.
1w9 sp/sx Obsessive Compulsive
"Corpus omne perseverare in statu suo quiescendi vel movendi uniformiter in directum, nisi quatenus a viribus impressis cogitur statum illum mutare."
Isaacus Newtonus
It?
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Stormy
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Posted - 18 Feb 2012 : 12:57:10 PM
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Originally posted by Cytokine
I thought I had problems in life... but after a gym exercise with the new Russian trainer I think they started to pale in comparison.
Damn, I so want to do it again.
Trainer?
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eidbuser
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Posted - 18 Feb 2012 : 2:02:04 PM
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existence
non-existence
being
non-being
desiring one
fleeing from the other
what if theres no where to get to
how do you die before you die
by plunging yourself into the world
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AstralScream
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Posted - 18 Feb 2012 : 2:34:30 PM
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Once I'm done writing here, I will rise from this chair again, brush my teeth, do my hair, and go downtown.
So I can walk by the river, watch the barges from my perch on the wall. I climb the wall and watch everything pass by. There's always someone there playing a guitar and singing his heart out. And I can survey the new graffiti. Maybe buy a nice coat in an antique store. I love antique stores.
I need to get out of here. I will drive myself insane.
it doesn't matter how hard I try to be in company, sometimes everyone else is busy. Why is everyone too busy to speak to me? I get desperate, weird...
So, I'll just go take a walk. Screw it, screw them, screw you (I have someone specific in mind here). No one wants to play with me...bah
humbug
and I'm perpetually bored
my life is a constant balancing act, what does that mean? putting so much energy in just managing my emotions, no time for anything else. try to manage it with work, self-medication with papers. self-medication with assignments.
and coffee tea apples
sick of waking up on the same side of the bed; but this is impossible not to do. the left side is against a wall and I'm doomed to wake up on the wrong side of it unless I rearrange my room.
why did I ever decide to put it there?
trivial thoughts, I could spend hours regurgitating them.
It's obvious, I'm doing something wrong here. What? why is it always a mystery to me?
She is chained to the tremor
of a never arriving rhythm;
she has a heart of silver
and a dagger in her right hand - Federico García Lorca
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Edited by - AstralScream on 18 Feb 2012 2:38:39 PM |
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