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sunny
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 Posted - 03 Dec 2011 : 11:38:21 AM
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Originally posted by chemical_art
I made cookies. They are warm. Screwdrivers are tasty. I've gorged myself on eggnog today. I shall again tomorrow. It's fattening. I could use the weight. It's nice to be of a good weight. Running allows me to eat what I want. I don't like eggnog and alcohol.
oh chemical art...after my own heart...cookies....egg nog...yum...I need more coffee...too many self pres things to do today and I'd rather not...think I'll take a bus downtown and immerse myself in music and vibes...do the other stuff tomorrow...lets see for breakfast whole grain with pecorino and add two veges and dark chocolate...that's good for you...more coffee too...antioxidants...EEEK a mouse just ran by my cold feet...damn drafty old house.
I'll take a hot bath first of all.
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AstralScream
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Posted - 03 Dec 2011 : 5:44:21 PM
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I like cakes' ramblings; they are adorable and sweet.
I don't hate Ovid, but I'm tired of reading about that Catullus guy. I don't care what he thought about Sappho. Too many classical poets to fit my head around at once.
I washed my face; really need to get out of this apartment soon. There's nothing to do in this town.
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chemical_art
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Posted - 03 Dec 2011 : 6:09:46 PM
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I'm bored. I want to cook something. What to cook? Chicken Alfredo? Could be fun...there is some chardonnay to cook with, damn, I don't want chicken without marinade, otherwise I just should eat pasta Alfredo. I feel lazy. I'm going to cook some of the chicken for Monday lunch. Should be tasty. Pasta Alfredo it is. I won't even make it from scratch by boiling the cream and butter and Parisian cheese, I'll use the jar of stuff. So what to eat for tonight. Almost out of bread. I may not even have chicken. Need to go shopping again. Maybe nachos. I crave hamburgers. Don't have any. I'm quite indecisive.
I want a good book to read. But I can't bother to read anything of length. My imagination is being sucked by another cause. It's a good cause, nay, great cause. I love it. But it hinders my reading of other things. Can imagination be finite? I'm wrong. I just haven't had the desire to read. Writing is so much more enjoyable. I love it.
I was recently reminded of a guilty pleasure I watch. It's still enjoyable. It's so so while sober but with the right drinking game it gets a lot better. The characters are all cute. But I don't enjoy it nearly as much as I did a year ago. Have I changed much since then? Probably. Lots of things have changed. I'm not complaining. Life's a journey.
Keep moving forward.
Who said that? It was a movie once. I think it was Disney. Yeah I think he did. He was a pretty smart guy. Too bad he was a tyrant and bigot. But he's dead so its a moot point. I like Disney as a whole. Definitely a result of growing up watching a lot of the movies. My mom is crazy over them. It's one of the few things she likes. She's so crazy. She has the bitterness of a old woman and the maturity of a teenager. I admit I don't like her. But I love her. She's still mom.
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AstralScream
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Posted - 03 Dec 2011 : 9:01:32 PM
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Thanks, Astral :)
i do like this thread a lot.
Ive always wished i could hear what others were thinking, and sharing what im thinking has been very cathartic.
9w1-7w6-2w3.sp/sx.INFP
You're welcome :) I agree, this thread is pretty cool so far. It
feels healing, even the lighter stuff. I'm always wondering what's going on in other people's heads.
I told a stranger a few days ago that she had a beautiful smile; I think I got as much out of that as she did. She seemed very startled and surprised, even though she was in the center of a compliment circle. I didn't know her at all, but the way she smiled was truly precious. It was just so honest.
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S
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Posted - 04 Dec 2011 : 5:43:33 PM
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Originally posted by chemical_art
Keep moving forward.
Who said that? It was a movie once. I think it was Disney. Yeah I think he did. He was a pretty smart guy. Too bad he was a tyrant and bigot. But he's dead so its a moot point.
Ha,ha,haaa.
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baba
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Posted - 04 Dec 2011 : 6:09:19 PM
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Krungthepmahanakonbowornratanakosinmahintarayudyayamahadiloponoparatanarajthaniburiromudomrajniwesmahasatarnamornpimarnavatarsatitsakattiyavi.
My letter never arrived, return to sender..
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savory
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 3:07:30 PM
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the baby upstairs, not such a baby any more, he's 1... I hear him now even from in back of the house where I think I'm safe from noise. I saw him outside in the alcove yesterday peered through the curtains because I heard someone hammering the side of the house, but they'd put a wooden board across so he wouldn't fall down the 3 very wide stairs onto the brick-layed path and then off the metre high cliff side onto the cement and into their vegetable garden. like shots shot gun, baaaaaang. I looked at him looking at his mom, his eyes he looked like an evil gnome. not very cute for a baby at all. then I decided he must be evil. he's so loud. louder now than he was. he keeps rising in degrees the older he gets. he used to scream and scream in the day, then he rolled balls across the floor now he crawls, now he stands, now he throws things, now he shrieks in delight and terror across my brain and I think he does it on purpose.
our house has no ceiling. I mean, they have no floor. I mean, he's just going to hammer on through.
I hadn't seen him for a while. But he's now sentient. For a while I didn't know if he was human, because I only heard him. I walked past them the other day carrying my boyfriend's bike up to the car that we don't own, and she said Helloooo! in that voice and looked at me and I said a short hi and it was great because I glared some and looked at the thing she was carrying as it looked back at me boring into my head with its unblinked marbly somethings in its own head. and I felt great, being not nice not cheery, maybe they could realize that he upsets me and makes me stomp through the house too often and makes me wear ear plugs. I feel so good not having to be nice to them if I don't want to. I like being cold, I like short-changing them on the exchange. I like asking them if they have carpet or a rug they could put down honestly I'd really love it and why don't you in the first place? But they already have carpet, my[blocked due to guideline #4 violation]they do. carpet. no way in this earth and all that is sacred to the home do they have carpet. The ball rolls on wood dear parents. WOOD and it bangs on wood and knocks things over onto wood, and I might have even seen those floors when my boyfriend broke into your house from the roof because your cat was stuck inside and was shut out from its food and was meowing at the bottom of the stairs and you were gone (because the baby has replaced the cat and he's lonely). And I said "open their front door so I can see, I need to see what their place looks like. I'm too curious I need to know, I need to know if what I have in my head is what they have up there" and he did and I went up the stairs and saw that you have a LOT of stairs and don't have as much space as us, but that you also have wooden floors and a nice kitchen and a decent living room that doesn't have rugs. I know you lie and that you lied to shut me up and to walk back up the stairs without an ending to the conversation to[blocked due to guideline #4 violation]me off because I know you're not going to do anything at all and that your needs trump mine because you have a thing living with you and we shouldn't care at all, we should live through it.
I wish you'd move out already, but I don't think you'll be able to find a place for the price you're paying now. We don't know if we can find another place for the price we're paying now. Or if it is worth it to find a place for more and not have to pay the price of the overhead. If we stay here again, what will I have to look forward to? I think it's weird seeing babies grow up into people. Then they start talking. I think this kid will start out screaming. Then, what... will... he turn... into...
"...a great source of discomfort in mental life, as in culture, is discovering the gap between what you are doing and what you imagine you are doing, between who you are and who you imagine yourself to be...
People who go mad are people for whom the two lines become completely separated.
The most creative individuals in our cultures are those who can straddle the most distance, and yet keep the two lines together." |
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radical_ed
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 6:31:32 PM
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I really need a manicure
I hate holding for the next available representative
This bill couldn't have possibly already been paid!
I shouldn't drink Mexican Coke. I love it but it rots my teeth faster
I wish I could get a better paying job, but do I really have to go back to school?
My job is boring. I want something more exciting
Maybe I'll get that promotion. I've been a good worker
This phone has a lot of static.
No, I don't want to visit your website. I need a real person
Sure, my call is so important to you....
Radical Edward
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chemical_art
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 7:01:53 PM
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| I'm frustrated. The world is mean. It continuously disappoints. I'm sure I do too. Don't think I'm above it all. I'm bad too. But two wrongs don't make a right. It doesn't change the fact that it's mean. It's hard to be positive and rise when the world drags everything down. Saying nothing is better then that. I feel like if people wanted change positive words would go faster. It wouldn't be drowned out since it's less common, unlike negative words. It's a vicious cycle, negatively. It makes me ugly. Because I can't take it forever. Then I lash back. But that doesn't get me down too much. I have strong armor. I have a warped mindset that I can, nay, should take it. But my weak spot is if others I care about hurt. That really brings me down. I don't feel so ugly when I come to other's defense though. I can't tolerate inaction then. Am I ugly if I rush to other's defense? |
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MH
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 10:12:08 PM
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What the [blocked due to guideline #4 violation]? Why am I still dealing with the [blocked due to guideline #4 violation] seventh grade.grow the [blocked due to guideline #4 violation] up. |
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MH
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 10:13:51 PM
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It continuously disappoints.
 I've crafted a second suit of armor because I have that much freetime..Yours for the taking my friend..It has a sqeaky cuss action tho so you are forewarned. |
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S
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 10:24:52 PM
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I need a wee
I need a wee
I can't be bothered to go for a wee
I need a wee
whisky sip
I should be asleep
I need a wee
I need a wee
whisky sip
I need a wee
I need a wee
They'll probably laugh at this one
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relicquery
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 10:28:00 PM
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^ I laughed. (I have to qualify that because I don't make noise when I laugh, I think my "laugh" is most people's "smile/grin." The other night I was "cracking up" which is whispery but still voiceless. I will marry the first person to get an actual voiced laugh out of me.)
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Some do magic | Some do harm
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radical_ed
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 10:37:38 PM
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I'm tired of wanting. I'm tired of running. There are things in my life pointing at me to just relax ... but I feel so disappointed in myself. I was the smart kid, supposed to make something out of herself, and now, it's just this ... but maybe it's supposed to be just this.
Maybe I'm just having a vacation life. Maybe in a past life, I achieved all that I was capable of ... maybe in this life, I already have achieved what I am capable of ... maybe it's just time to relax and be myself. The real me. And I'm really not all that impressive. My interests won't make me a lot of money, which is worrying in this economy and with my bills, but I really am oh, so tired, and I just want to relax. But I am afraid of what that means. Of who I would become. Of what I would do. Or not do. What would I be, if I really were me?
(I can tell, I really am a Three.)
Radical Edward
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Cytokine
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 10:47:26 PM
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I feel like I failed in my life, not just in terms of achievements, but also in emotional development and satisfaction. There is no scenario that I can play out in my head that will turns things around. My life is a boring, repetitive routine and is as romantic as a machine on an assembly line. I need an ambitious plan that will make me succeed at moving things or I better hope there is another life after this one, because I didn't make it right in this one.
1w9 sp/sx Obsessive Compulsive
"Corpus omne perseverare in statu suo quiescendi vel movendi uniformiter in directum, nisi quatenus a viribus impressis cogitur statum illum mutare."
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AstralScream
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 10:50:26 PM
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Originally posted by Cytokine
I feel like I failed in my life, not just in terms of achievements, but also in emotional development and satisfaction. There is no scenario that I can play out in my head that will turns things around. My life is a boring, repetitive routine and is as romantic as a machine on an assembly line. I need an ambitious plan that will make me succeed at moving things or I better hope there is another life after this one, because I didn't make it right in this one.
1w9 sp/sx Obsessive Compulsive
"Corpus omne perseverare in statu suo quiescendi vel movendi uniformiter in directum, nisi quatenus a viribus impressis cogitur statum illum mutare."
Isaacus Newtonus
Christ, I can relate to that. I was probably thinking it less than two minutes ago. |
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MH
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 10:53:02 PM
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Christ, I can relate to that. I was probably thinking it less than two minutes ago.
I found my diary from 03..never do that. |
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S
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 10:54:26 PM
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Originally posted by relicquery
I will marry the first person to get an actual voiced laugh out of me.
... Challenge.
6w7. "dark" so/sx (I try not to quote so please respond as honestly as you like and I'll honour if you want to delete later) |
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AstralScream
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 10:56:41 PM
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Originally posted by May Hem
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Christ, I can relate to that. I was probably thinking it less than two minutes ago.
I found my diary from 03..never do that.
Oh, about all those wasted nights spent up until 6 or so in the morning reading through all my stupid bull[blocked due to guideline #4 violation] from 2006 trying to pick something, anything, with an ounce of insight in it. Yeah, something like that. I would burn them if they weren't all electronic. I'd have to finally print them out just to burn them. |
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S
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 10:57:05 PM
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Originally posted by Cytokine
I feel like I failed in my life, not just in terms of achievements, but also in emotional development and satisfaction. There is no scenario that I can play out in my head that will turns things around. My life is a boring, repetitive routine and is as romantic as a machine on an assembly line. I need an ambitious plan that will make me succeed at moving things or I better hope there is another life after this one, because I didn't make it right in this one.
1. You've trapped yourself
2. You're still very young
3. You'll be amazed when you find out how easily you can change
6w7. "dark" so/sx (I try not to quote so please respond as honestly as you like and I'll honour if you want to delete later) |
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S
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 10:59:07 PM
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Originally posted by AstralScream
Oh, about all those wasted nights spent up until 6 or so in the morning reading through all my stupid bull[blocked due to guideline #4 violation] from 2006 trying to pick something, anything, with an ounce of insight in it. Yeah, something like that. I would burn them if they weren't all electronic. I'd have to finally print them out just to burn them.
But you're so insightful! You're a poet!
Hardly anyone has the emotional experience/depth of you. You're incredibly colourful.
6w7. "dark" so/sx (I try not to quote so please respond as honestly as you like and I'll honour if you want to delete later) |
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MH
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 10:59:54 PM
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Mine were buried in a desk I sat at for two years and never looked at..My god..what a stupid waste of time..really.. Add a little more fuel and well have a [blocked due to guideline #4 violation]bonfire
Sorry for not dodging the swear but im on my last warning and all for cripes sake..A discussion board is very important.
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MH
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 11:01:38 PM
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| Streaming: Im in a foul mood and want to break up the entire room plus my existence |
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whitelila
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 11:01:59 PM
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Originally posted by Saintly
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Originally posted by relicquery
I will marry the first person to get an actual voiced laugh out of me.
... Challenge.
6w7. "dark" so/sx (I try not to quote so please respond as honestly as you like and I'll honour if you want to delete later)
i read it as damn near proposal. lol
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MH
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Posted - 05 Dec 2011 : 11:03:42 PM
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i read it as damn near proposal. lol
I laughed but not out loud..didnt want to be misunderstood on it |
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