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sunny
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 Posted - 12 Apr 2012 : 3:30:32 PM
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Originally posted by whitelila
house on fire, in hotel for a few days. so much black snot. Asleep under vent, black smoke pouring down on my face, slowing sufficating to death in my sleep. on heavy pain pills, fire alarm, heater blew up, fire, so much black smoke, still dizzy, headache, $30,000 for just the clean up, the insurance estimate, my nose is swollen and bleeding. can't stop the bloody nose. smoke dried it out, black snot, blood, gross.
My skin itches. I feel dirty. smoke soot, all obver my skin, a film of it.
My dreams.. under smoke, dream... my children.. I found some stuff that belong to them when they were only 2 and 3.. crying because my babies are gone.. they are growing up.. woke up, could not see, black smoke, I was crying.. my babies are gone.. I was dying in my sleep, my children on my mind.. pulled out of bed by firemen.. fire alarm did not wake me..
crazy
God, my skin itches!
lila...I'm glad you're okay!! That sounds horrific. What a terrible thing to go through.
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whitelila
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Posted - 12 Apr 2012 : 3:50:59 PM
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Thank you all. I'm still very high on smoke and pain pills. the great thing is that everything in my home is going to be cleaned by insurance. Even my clothing. all of it. All the dry cleaning.. and i had tons of dry cleaning that needed to be done anyway. lol
the sliver lining! |
Edited by - whitelila on 12 Apr 2012 3:51:15 PM |
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Cytokine
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Posted - 12 Apr 2012 : 4:24:44 PM
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Lila, your situation sucks and puts many of our problems into proportion. Sorry that it had to happen to you.
1w9 sp/sx Obsessive Compulsive
"Corpus omne perseverare in statu suo quiescendi vel movendi uniformiter in directum, nisi quatenus a viribus impressis cogitur statum illum mutare."
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~lee~
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Posted - 12 Apr 2012 : 4:32:12 PM
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| Lila, I'm sorry this happened to you, and so glad you're alive, was rescued, and will recover. |
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AstralScream
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Posted - 12 Apr 2012 : 4:55:04 PM
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Oh my gosh, Lila! *BIG HUGS*
I am very glad you made it through! |
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whitelila
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Posted - 12 Apr 2012 : 4:59:04 PM
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Thank you, right now i'm dealing with a house full of people. The clean up crew will be here tomorrow, 8 people, a total wash down of everything. everything has soot and smoke grime all over it. Today guys were going through my dirty panties 
They were bagging it up to wash. But hey, they have to wash it now, right? lol
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MH
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Posted - 12 Apr 2012 : 5:01:04 PM
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| [blocked]. I'm so glad your okay lila. :( |
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Fleets
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Posted - 12 Apr 2012 : 5:17:20 PM
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Sorry to hear you went through this, Lila.
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Art_Skidmore
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Posted - 12 Apr 2012 : 7:20:37 PM
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i am glad your okay.
can i drop off a basket of bxers for a free wash?
we jus gotta go out one of thess days?
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whitelila
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Posted - 13 Apr 2012 : 07:25:55 AM
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At hotel. More free food than I know what to do with. Thanks everyone. Today I feel a lot better. :)
Got to love the Hampton Inn. Best low price hotel around. lol |
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radical_ed
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Posted - 13 Apr 2012 : 12:00:58 PM
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quote:
Originally posted by whitelila
house on fire, in hotel for a few days. so much black snot. Asleep under vent, black smoke pouring down on my face, slowing sufficating to death in my sleep. on heavy pain pills, fire alarm, heater blew up, fire, so much black smoke, still dizzy, headache, $30,000 for just the clean up, the insurance estimate, my nose is swollen and bleeding. can't stop the bloody nose. smoke dried it out, black snot, blood, gross.
My skin itches. I feel dirty. smoke soot, all obver my skin, a film of it.
My dreams.. under smoke, dream... my children.. I found some stuff that belong to them when they were only 2 and 3.. crying because my babies are gone.. they are growing up.. woke up, could not see, black smoke, I was crying.. my babies are gone.. I was dying in my sleep, my children on my mind.. pulled out of bed by firemen.. fire alarm did not wake me..
crazy
God, my skin itches!
I'm sorry you had to go through this, lila. I went through a similar situation several years ago and it was very frightening. I had no idea how attached I was to my belongings until they were almost gone. Hope everything goes OK.
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radical_ed
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Posted - 13 Apr 2012 : 12:02:34 PM
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My new boyfriend has the sexiest nose! He is descended from Belgian nobles so that must explain it. Unfortunately, we are both broke. But at least we are good looking. 
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Radical Edward
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jevoudrais
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Posted - 13 Apr 2012 : 12:15:17 PM
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| I am glad you are ok, Lila. |
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shakti
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Posted - 13 Apr 2012 : 2:16:55 PM
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Cytokine
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Posted - 14 Apr 2012 : 4:49:11 PM
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Turned 27 on the 12 of April. Just so you know, that's also the date of the Soviet Cosmonautics Day. Too bad then that I'm just another useless human who didn't break any human frontiers. 
Cosmonautics Day is a holiday celebrated in Russia and some other former USSR countries on April 12. This holiday celebrates the first manned space flight made on April 12, 1961 by the 27-year-old Soviet cosmonaut Yuri Gagarin. (Source)
1w9 sp/sx Obsessive Compulsive
"Corpus omne perseverare in statu suo quiescendi vel movendi uniformiter in directum, nisi quatenus a viribus impressis cogitur statum illum mutare."
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MH
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Posted - 14 Apr 2012 : 4:56:50 PM
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| Happy birthday Cytokine. |
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Cytokine
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Posted - 14 Apr 2012 : 5:19:14 PM
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Thanks. I've had a pretty good 3 day vacation, during which I reflected on what I want to be doing during the remaining years of my life. I want to keep it simple, pursue further education, get better job opportunities and relocate to a different country.
1w9 sp/sx Obsessive Compulsive
"Corpus omne perseverare in statu suo quiescendi vel movendi uniformiter in directum, nisi quatenus a viribus impressis cogitur statum illum mutare."
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whitelila
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Posted - 15 Apr 2012 : 01:25:52 AM
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Happy birthday Cytokine!
Lets see his nose, RE! 
again, thanks all. Things are going back to normal faster than I could have imagined. |
Edited by - whitelila on 15 Apr 2012 01:27:09 AM |
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Abi
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Posted - 15 Apr 2012 : 05:26:38 AM
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Lila, just reading this now.
Glad to hear everyone's safe. Be well.
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Cytokine
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Posted - 15 Apr 2012 : 06:56:51 AM
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Thanks, Lila.
In my experience 7s and 7 wingers sometimes have to paint a positive picture about reality even if it isn't. Seriously Lila, you inhaled tons of smoke and almost died and we're supposed to believe that a couple of days later things are going back to normal?
1w9 sp/sx Obsessive Compulsive
"Corpus omne perseverare in statu suo quiescendi vel movendi uniformiter in directum, nisi quatenus a viribus impressis cogitur statum illum mutare."
Isaacus Newtonus |
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whitelila
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Posted - 15 Apr 2012 : 09:54:54 AM
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yeah, OK.. my face is swollen as [blocked]. I'm still snotting up tons of black snot.. and my lungs hurt. But I don't want to think about that. also, someone who was in the clean up crew stole all the money out of my kids piggy banks. A total of about $400,00. Who knows what else they stole...
sigh... but i do like to look at the bright side.. and looking at my puffy ugly face is not it. 
And i'm sick on crap fast food. Yuck. So i feel super fat. lol |
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Cytokine
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Posted - 15 Apr 2012 : 4:01:02 PM
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Amazing how in some countries you can leave a laptop on a park bench for 2 hours, come back and still have it there (or at the nearest police station) while in other countries people will even steal from child piggy banks.
1w9 sp/sx Obsessive Compulsive
"Corpus omne perseverare in statu suo quiescendi vel movendi uniformiter in directum, nisi quatenus a viribus impressis cogitur statum illum mutare."
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Abi
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Posted - 15 Apr 2012 : 4:08:11 PM
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Plenty of people in all countries turn in/return things.
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Cytokine
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Posted - 15 Apr 2012 : 5:54:43 PM
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Plenty of people also eat apples. Some eat 2 a day, others eat 2 a month. Using the term 'plenty' in relation to people doesn't really mean much.
Statistically, there are up to 37 times more robberies per capita in the US than in other industrialized nations.
Number of robberies per 100,000 population
United States: 146.4
Korea, South: 10.4
Japan: 4
1w9 sp/sx Obsessive Compulsive
"Corpus omne perseverare in statu suo quiescendi vel movendi uniformiter in directum, nisi quatenus a viribus impressis cogitur statum illum mutare."
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whitelila
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Posted - 15 Apr 2012 : 11:41:45 PM
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A vat of boiling heads, clear glass, red coil burner, skin and meat pulling from bone. All women, dark red hair to light blond. From 18-50, all beautiful, cooking, a soup of faces.
Crying, heart broken young guy, maybe 25, my ex, but have never seen him before. Don't know him. He is so hurt, he lashes out at me, I still don't know him, but i guess i should, he is my ex.. but he is a stranger. Think i'm going crazy.
Birds, long claws, old dry trees, dyed my hair black, looks bad, no one knows me, island, going on a trip, have tickets, but no clothing, the island is tiny, all sand, don't want to go, washing my hair with tide, washing it again and again and again, to get the black out. Clearly it is a dream connection about the smoke.. washing it out of my hair, my face swollen, does not look like me, but what is the island? Maybe the hotel.. yes, the island must be this hotel. Who is killing the women? The fire maybe.. yes, boiling soup. The fire. My hair, dark red and blond mix.. yes.. ageless beauty, that is me. Must be me again, cooking in fire. Who is ex? I have no idea why he is crying. What have I forgotten?
Who have I forgotten?
Circus.. lots of black eyeliner. Men with black eyeliner, 1920's? One looks like xxxxxxx
Birthday. Damn it!
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Edited by - whitelila on 16 Apr 2012 12:10:58 AM |
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